fathers day 2012
venice, ca
hey dad
i wish i could honor you but i'm still so angry at you
and that's just the truth
my heart doesn't understand and still beats with love for you
but it's got no where to go, no where to flow
you won't see me face to face
all your shame of the past has you hiding from me
i'm 37 dad...
it's been over ten years
i wonder, do you miss me?
i wouldn't know how to walk away from my son
he's 19, i started young
you know the math
so many girls who have been abused have babies young
i pray everyday to be a good mom to my son
i'm still working out the shit from my own past
all around the world i work with women who are angry from the abuse of men
where can the healing come from?
we are all One
i wish i could see you, i wish we could have a cup of coffee
i wish i was free to pour my heart out to you
so i do it here
in an email
i always hated hallmark cards and holidays that are supposed to hide all the problems we have
happy birthday, merry christmas
and now happy fathers day
i wish i could honour you dad, but i'm still so angry at you
but i'll send this wish
cuz it's all we have
happy fathers day
i miss you
i am waiting for you
don't let it die this way
let's make a new story between a father and a daughter
i am waiting for you
venice, ca
hey dad
i wish i could honor you but i'm still so angry at you
and that's just the truth
my heart doesn't understand and still beats with love for you
but it's got no where to go, no where to flow
you won't see me face to face
all your shame of the past has you hiding from me
i'm 37 dad...
it's been over ten years
i wonder, do you miss me?
i wouldn't know how to walk away from my son
he's 19, i started young
you know the math
so many girls who have been abused have babies young
i pray everyday to be a good mom to my son
i'm still working out the shit from my own past
all around the world i work with women who are angry from the abuse of men
where can the healing come from?
we are all One
i wish i could see you, i wish we could have a cup of coffee
i wish i was free to pour my heart out to you
so i do it here
in an email
i always hated hallmark cards and holidays that are supposed to hide all the problems we have
happy birthday, merry christmas
and now happy fathers day
i wish i could honour you dad, but i'm still so angry at you
but i'll send this wish
cuz it's all we have
happy fathers day
i miss you
i am waiting for you
don't let it die this way
let's make a new story between a father and a daughter
i am waiting for you
raw. feel you.
ReplyDeleteYour movement towards forgiveness, surrender and letting go is divinely beautiful and intensely powerful. I have been also deeply moved by our brief encounter recently at Shakti Dallas. I applaud your raw voice of truth and admire your methods. These blogs make me feel even more like your soul sister. I pray your Dad, and all parents who have hurt their children, to take the courage to say "I'm sorry," and to embrace the ability to change, and as you alluded to here...To shift the dynamic and make a NEW story....
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